hey its been a long while its almost even akward. im now working so im happy. ive gotten huge ice cream cravings so im at the mall like three times a week at dairy queen =X   i dont really want to go anymore though. something annoying happened. but i cant really go into detail about that. ask me? sure ill tell you if you ask me.

now lets see. i think im a good singer, who wants to hire me for their band??? ha yeah right, i really would like to be a lead singer but my age is the problem. who would hire me? my voice isnt that amazing to be a solo artist. im good enough for rock and still come out better than others.  so if any teen bands are forming and need a vocalist (female) get @ me!

well right now the kids are off to school and coming home in about an hour. its 100 degrees outside, the cats missing, i just sung “maps” on rock band and amazed myself, this keyboard is wierd. oh and i played dead leaves and the dirty ground on the guitar. SIGNED BY: patrick stump!! 

the only thing that im sore about is all the guys that i think can possibly suit me are taken. im picky about guys too so they should be single for me :[  the one i do love with all my heart has got me at my wits end .  i really would do anything for him.   love me love me say that you love me!!!  lets see, i dont aim for guys who are blonde cause they usually dont have a heart. they usually have 10 gfs too. well the kids just came??!!! lmaoo so i have to go!! ill be back soonn

im probably the most decent person in the group of people i hang out with (at school).  i feel really innocent.  90% of the kids in high school are doing the most immoral, disgusting, mindless things you can think of. thats just the reality. i just realized that this week. Im a religious girl, i know whats right and wrong. it just shocks me. like ok sex, im seriously shocked that people at school even have sex. it changes the way i look at people around me. i feel like ew…  wheres the respect?! i know that sounds really immature but i thinks its more mature to look at things that way. even people who havent had sex are gross. like my friend said she skipped school with three guys and her friend. one of the guys went into the room with the other girl and my friend said the two guys that were left were begging her to have sex with them and they even got naked and kept begging her. i looked at her differently. that’s not even the half of everything, if you think your kids in school and doing the right thing, think again. i dont trust anybody anymore. im not even talking about senior or anything, these are freshmen and sophomores. im going to say this without regretting it: YOU SLUTS UGH! grosssss. all the stupid drugs you go on and the guys/girls you sleep with! its completely appaling. i dont even feel like looking at you guys. its no wonder everybody had aids. like i know this one girl who had sex with 5 guys while she was skipping. WTF?  im really annoyed at this. bi guys are even worse. they have foursomes with girls and guys and oh my god? nobody even cares anymore. my best friend is a virgin, totally sane, never done drugs, very religious as well. and theres litterally nothing that can come between us. its so much better having friends who arent troubled. they add to my stress.  idk

thats all i guess, right now im just upset =P

anyway so no i didnt get a kitten yet. i lost my urge.  idc

i went over Karen’s house friday and slept there. the kids woke up while i was walking in to go to bed and they kept me up all night, nobody went to sleep. Guitar hero was one of ther easons i went over there. i hadn’t played it in forever.blahh.  im just bored now.  oh and obama will never get my support. adults have no idea like at school black kids are going to be even meaner and more aggressive and act like they rule the world. they do that now, imagine if he wins. thats shitty. if they start doing it i’ll seriously move to a place where there are no black people and live there all my life in peace. no, you have no idea what ive been through in that area. so shutup if youre complaining.

HSA’s next week =]

im actually happy

this is my first post so i have to catch everybody up on my life.

First of all my name is Melissa. I live in Maryland. Not saying where..but its pretty chill. I have a bigg imediate family. Im trying to be vague here   lets get more specific now. My main interests in life now are kind of selfish. things were different once, people around me actually remember those days and kind of sigh. Lets see.. my interests.. right now the things flashing through my head are Pretty. Odd. , love, art, my guitar, summer, singing,becoming an icon, and this guy (that i will not name). I know almost everybody in the world wants to be famous, but its like i have an obsession with it. I can’t see myself as a normal person at all. People say happiness is all that counts.  I want to be a musician, admired, i want to see people singing to my lyrics. that would make me happy.  There will be a difference though. Ive met band after band. theyre so overprotected its disgusting. what the helll?! this is what aggravates me. People are people, if you didnt hide them so much you wouldnt have those crazy teens. theyre crazy cause you hide them so much and seeing them is like seeing jesus or something.  if youre laid back about it people will chill too.

anyway. This week things started getting a little wierd. FIrst theres the flooding on monday, tuesday its gorgeous, yesterday was the crappiest. Ive been feeling so down lately. everybody with man problems telling me about them. So yesterday i called up my sister and she said she would go do me a favor and pick up a kitten this lady was giving me in Baltimore. I was super excited because i feel depressed and i want something to warm me up. When i got home from school i called the lady up and stuff she said it was fine and we agreed on a time. meanwhile i was trying to concentrate on a project that was due today. i couldnt work on it efficiently though, my over-excited mind was somewhere else. Night came, Leslie dropped by and hung out for a while. then i got a call from my sister saying that she went but the lady wasnt there and it was a really far drive. i felt so bad and sad. once again proving that i never do anything right. I didnt finish the project, i fell asleep first and by morning i was up trying to finish it. once again my mind was somewhere else and it took me till ten or eleven to finish. school had already looong started. I printed it and ran up to school. walking was less tiring this time. I got there with the idea that i was going to walk back home as soon as i turned it in..since i was already like five hours late. I decided to stay so i walked upstairs (probably illegally) into my government class. my teacher just looked at me like iw as crazy and i started hanging out with Karina and Michael. we talked for a bit, and it always turns into “would you do that person over there?” game. a bit later that class ended and i ran donwstairs into french. i soo shined today with my sharp memory. qu’elle heure est il?  Il est trois heures et demi! hell yeahhs. hahah my bfffs were there, well one of them Jaimee. She was trying to snap a picture of me the whole time. ugh! thats one of the few things that annoy me. I sat there after the lesson trying to listen to “Mexico” by Incubus (the greatest band ever). michael then started rhyming with me.. shine mine dine nine etc. im sure he lost.  i actually took the bus, i think thats why i didnt walk back, because i wanted to ride the school bus in the afternoon. when i got here Karen called me and she said there were more kitten postings on craigslist. so i went and called and now im supposed to go over there this afternoon with leslie. im hoping nobody takes the 6 week old ones before i get there. for now im writing. im writing a book actually, ive gotten like 65 pages done. its about..him<3  

i guess ill be going now, kittens await