this is my first post so i have to catch everybody up on my life.

First of all my name is Melissa. I live in Maryland. Not saying where..but its pretty chill. I have a bigg imediate family. Im trying to be vague here   lets get more specific now. My main interests in life now are kind of selfish. things were different once, people around me actually remember those days and kind of sigh. Lets see.. my interests.. right now the things flashing through my head are Pretty. Odd. , love, art, my guitar, summer, singing,becoming an icon, and this guy (that i will not name). I know almost everybody in the world wants to be famous, but its like i have an obsession with it. I can’t see myself as a normal person at all. People say happiness is all that counts.  I want to be a musician, admired, i want to see people singing to my lyrics. that would make me happy.  There will be a difference though. Ive met band after band. theyre so overprotected its disgusting. what the helll?! this is what aggravates me. People are people, if you didnt hide them so much you wouldnt have those crazy teens. theyre crazy cause you hide them so much and seeing them is like seeing jesus or something.  if youre laid back about it people will chill too.

anyway. This week things started getting a little wierd. FIrst theres the flooding on monday, tuesday its gorgeous, yesterday was the crappiest. Ive been feeling so down lately. everybody with man problems telling me about them. So yesterday i called up my sister and she said she would go do me a favor and pick up a kitten this lady was giving me in Baltimore. I was super excited because i feel depressed and i want something to warm me up. When i got home from school i called the lady up and stuff she said it was fine and we agreed on a time. meanwhile i was trying to concentrate on a project that was due today. i couldnt work on it efficiently though, my over-excited mind was somewhere else. Night came, Leslie dropped by and hung out for a while. then i got a call from my sister saying that she went but the lady wasnt there and it was a really far drive. i felt so bad and sad. once again proving that i never do anything right. I didnt finish the project, i fell asleep first and by morning i was up trying to finish it. once again my mind was somewhere else and it took me till ten or eleven to finish. school had already looong started. I printed it and ran up to school. walking was less tiring this time. I got there with the idea that i was going to walk back home as soon as i turned it in..since i was already like five hours late. I decided to stay so i walked upstairs (probably illegally) into my government class. my teacher just looked at me like iw as crazy and i started hanging out with Karina and Michael. we talked for a bit, and it always turns into “would you do that person over there?” game. a bit later that class ended and i ran donwstairs into french. i soo shined today with my sharp memory. qu’elle heure est il?  Il est trois heures et demi! hell yeahhs. hahah my bfffs were there, well one of them Jaimee. She was trying to snap a picture of me the whole time. ugh! thats one of the few things that annoy me. I sat there after the lesson trying to listen to “Mexico” by Incubus (the greatest band ever). michael then started rhyming with me.. shine mine dine nine etc. im sure he lost.  i actually took the bus, i think thats why i didnt walk back, because i wanted to ride the school bus in the afternoon. when i got here Karen called me and she said there were more kitten postings on craigslist. so i went and called and now im supposed to go over there this afternoon with leslie. im hoping nobody takes the 6 week old ones before i get there. for now im writing. im writing a book actually, ive gotten like 65 pages done. its about..him<3  

i guess ill be going now, kittens await